| | I've found the perfect gown I've been looking for!!!! However, it was a little tight... I am goiing back this week to Daniel Yam to buy that white dress, it's been calling my name and its haunting me for not bringing it home!! 
Anyway, I would like to say sorry to dearie... I did not plan anything at all on his birthday.... i was so preoccupied with... work, and ROM... it kinda took a backseat. Let alone, i had 4 full day, plus half the morning on his actual birthday to plan sumthing, but i did not....
We went to vivocity, had lunch at whitedog cafe, and when i brought him to buy movie ticket at gold class cinema, the place was full!!!!! :*(
we ended up watching sex and the city in a normal cinema... and after that, I tried on gowns.... and went to his student's chalet for BBQ.
Today, we had some serious talk on our career and marriage... when he mentioned, that he was alittle disappointed, and was hoping i had a little surprise for him on his bday... he kept hoping secretly the whole day... and till the point when we arrived home, he even thought I will have a cake hiding somewhere to surprise him... I did not even cut a cake for him... he is right, i took it for granted. i was so selfish, and so thoughtless.... he tot i did not love him anymore and thought twice.
Sigh.... i seriously do not know what i was thinking... now to think of it, i think, it hurts.... and i know i've hurt him alot... especially on his special day.... i am truly sorry darling... and as promised with our pinkies, I will promise, that this will NEVER EVER happen for the rest of our lives together.... i love you, and i really took u for granted, i am sorry.. :(
This aside, hubby mentioned something very painful, that it broke my heart. He said, "one day if u leave me, do u know I will never receive a cent? its not that it bothers me, but the fact that most of the things u do, only seems to be for urself, and not for me... "
I was shocked, i told him "but, if we're married, wont my insurances belong to you dear?" and he replied. yes, legally it does, but if i choose to leave him, like just leave.. he will not have the rights. hmm... this left a huge question mark on me...
I have always thought dear did not mind... and i never had any intention to leave him... I never knew he had his doubts due to my life-style... alittle not caring towards other's feeling, especially my loved ones... cuz i always take them for granted...
Well darling, i have to tell you, u shud haf faith on me, you have given me so much faith to believe in u... i have never sensed your insecurity. my family means alot to me, yes, but this means, i treasure my family alot.... in other word, once we're married, OUR own little beautiful family, will be my only priority.
we are not married yet, but soon... once we are married, you're gonna be my partner and soul mate for the rest of our lives... of cuz, my priorties change...
I am happy, we had a good talk today, i am happy u have opened up to share your fears for our future.
But i can promise u, i do not believe in divorce, whether ur rich or poor, whether ur crippled, whether we have to lose the car or lose all of our cash, i have to work day and night, etc etc... I will be your wife faithfully and give you the love no one else have ever given you.
I will go all the day with u thru thick and thin, and i am very sure, we will be successful, not on wealth but, we will be full of wealth with our love dear.
I love u to bits, and i am so excited to spend the rest of our lives together.
Love you :)
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